Sakura

Few weeks back the Sakura here in Tokyo were in their full blossom and have dressed the city in pink. People flocked to the various parks, carrying with them alcohol and bento. They would just spend the whole day eating, drinking and chatting under the sakura trees. Sakura season is short-lived though. A week later the flowers were all gone and the green replaced the pink. The closing of the sakura season was anti-climatic, almost pathetic. Unlike firework which always ends with a bang, piece by piece, one by one, the flower just detached itself and decomposed. Maybe there was beauty in such a departure also but it was melancholic to witness something so beautiful just disappeared over a course of one-week time. Perhaps the real reason for my grief was to realize that life returned back to its dull, uninspiring form thereafter.

well, that is until the next sakura season.


桜の花びら散るたびに 届かぬ思いがまた一つ
涙と笑顔に消されてく そしてまた大人になった

本音はきれいじゃない

It's one of those songs that I'd say "fxxk, this is how i fxxking feel"

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Now and then I think of when we were together 
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die 
Told myself that you were right for me 
But felt so lonely in your company 
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember 

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off 

Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing 

And I don't even need your love 

But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough

No you didn't have to stoop so low 

Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know 

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over 
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done 
But I don't wanna live that way 
Reading into every word you say 
You said that you could let it go 
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

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Yes, i am still bitter over it.